I just found this song and it perfectly describes what I was trying to say in my previous post!

There's a wideness in God's mercy that I cannot find in my own
And He keeps His fire burning to melt this heart of stone
He keeps me aching with a yearning, keeps me glad to have been caught In the reckless raging fury... That is called the love of God!!
Joy and sorrow are an ocean And in their every ebb and flow
Now the Lord a door has opened that all Hell could never close
Here I'm tested and made worthy, Tossed about but lifted up
In the reckless raging fury that is called the love of God!!!

Chrystal